Peace Out 2014

New Years Eve, or as Michael likes to call it, amateur night. We are quietly tucked away, mainly because we have a 3 year old who is in bed, and no matter what time we go to bed, she will be up and moving at her normal hour. So, I guess a quiet New Years is in order. However, in my eyes it is a momentous night, in my opinion, especially for our girl.

My Dearest Hosanna,

We are about to turn into a New Year. It will be a while before you fully understand what this means, but your mama, has been thinking about just how important your first one is as a Bowden. So much of your life has changed this year. And as you grow up, we will chat about all those changes, But for now, you start the next year as the first full year in your life that…….

You will never wonder again where your next meal will come from.

You will never question if you are loved and adored.

You will never wonder where you will sleep again.

You will never wonder if you will be abandoned again.

You will have things of your own, and not fight others for them.

You will have a warm bed to sleep in.

You will never wake up feeling alone.

You will never look for someone to hold you when you are sick, or comfort you when you cry.

You will have use of your arm, and continue to learn to use it and adapt.

You can say that Jesus is in the heart, and begin to understand even more what that means.

My girl, you are a treasure not just in my eyes, but your Baba’s and most importantly Jesus’s eyes. I am so thankful that 2014 was the year that I became your mama. I am so thankful that 2014 was another lesson in what love is. Looking forward to 2015, your first full calendar year as a Bowden. The sky is the limit!!!

Love, Mom

When 2014 began, I was excited with great anticipation because I knew in part what was coming. But never in my wildest dreams did I think it would take some of the twists, turns, ups and downs that it has. I learned once again, a lesson in love, grew in the knowledge of whom my Creator is, stood firm for the things that I believe in (no matter the cost), experienced an incredible range of emotions, and can say I value every moment. Many more lessons to learn in the coming year, some life changes to come. 

We get one life to live, may my reckless abandonment grow as I awake to a new year.